Bi-Polar

I was asked today if i'm bi-polar
sometimes I feel as if I am
when we broke up last night
my body felt ripped in two
as if two giant claws came at me
one from the left
one from the right
they clamped with the force of the "Jaws of Death"
UHHHH I gasp from the pain
one pulls left
the other pulls right
ripping me
from top to bottom
split in two
one side screaming NOOOOO
This cannot be happening
the other side
peaceful
knowing it's God
knowing it's right
i look down
the blood pooling below me
dripping from the God side
POURING from the opposite
i look at the mess
take no time to examine the damage
and i begin the mending process
I take the thread
hopefully the right color
I, Painstakingly, push the string
push it through the hole of the needle
and begin to stitch
every finished stitch
brings the feeling of peace
and then i look at the rest of the pain
and all i see is blood
my heart so nearly sliced
Where do i go from here?
i continue the mending process
pushing the needle through my skin
threading
pulling
until it looks semi-normal
i know that it will scar
the question is
how much
and that thread
is it the right color
I don't know
Will i still be able to see it
years from now
i can't allow myself to feel
or I will drop the thread
but I can't heal too soon
or i'll resent the peace
see...
Bi-Polar...